Every time I begin having the dream about the graveyard and the school I know it's time to make a major change in my surroundings or my life. Essentially, I have come to find out that the school part is my having to learn the same lessons over and over until the lessons themselves become nightmarish. The graveyard is always the same one. It is the one that holds my own grave, and yes that grave is very real right now. When I dream about it it tells me that the part of me that is spiritual, that is my faith, the part of me that cares the most is about to be buried if I don't act now.
This time I had to end a toxic friendship where this so-called friend was repeating to me that she was a Christian over and over again as a shield against my words in something that I was trying to explain to her, and also other things as well. How ever many times she felt she needed to throw up the shield and state to me that she was a Christian etc etc the things that had nothing to do with her faith at all, she would just throw those words out to me repeatedly. I do mean repeatedly in the same conversation and most of the time just minutes apart from each other. For as long as I had known this person there was no need in doing that unless she was calling me absolutely stupid thinking that she had to repeat this over and over to me. Either way it was a sign of hate.
In the past the only way that I have got rid of these nightmares about the school and the graveyard, which have repeated themselves immensely throughout my life, is to get rid of people out of my life. I would much rather be alone than with people who cannot accept me for who I am and make me feel like this.
I ended an almost 30 year friendship this morning. I hope it is plain why. But as for her, it is not plain to her why, because she just keeps repeating that she's a good person and has been nothing but kind to me. That's not the only illusion she holds.
What do they say about pride? It goes before the fall, right? Yep.
Today's tarot card for me was the death card. And that was just a side note. The cars don't lie.
Merry Meet, Merry Part and Merry Meet again!
Blessed Be!
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